I have been absent for awhile...

I am tired. I think I am realizing that some people just won't change, no matter how many times they convince you that they have. Don't believe them. I am just done. This guy said that he was interested in me. We talked about it for about two months, even though he has a girlfriend. Now, we are hardly talking anymore. You know what? I am so done. I am done letting him play with me like this. I deserve to be treated better and I am not going to settle for this. I don't want to be your second choice. I don't want to do this anymore. I am looking at myself, and I just don't even believe how hard I have been trying. I am tired of it. I am going to finish this song that I have been writing about it, and be completely finished with this. Maybe that is the whole point in this ugly situation, that I could write an amazing song, that is all. You will never be what I need. You will never be what is good for me. So why am I doing this? This is such a waste of time.

I really mean it this time. I am making it final.