I'm not sure quite where to begin with this post, because I'm still not quite sure how I'm feeling. There are a lot of different things going on in my head and heart right now.
I have been looking around, at all the different human relationships. Love between best friends, love between people dating, love between family, love between us and animals, and I'm seeing all the relationships that I have been secretly jealous of. I didn't realize that I was jealous, though, until I saw each one of them fall apart. Every relationship that I have been seeing as perfect and thinking how happy they must be, I'm finding out is not that at all. There is always more going on, on the inside, and before, I just wasn't seeing any of that. In the last few weeks, I am just realizing more and more how incredibly unreliable people are. There are people that you used to rely on and trust turning around and shaking your world dry. It is really disconcerting to me.
I know a few people who have a extremely terrible home life. It really breaks my heart to see how it affects them and then to see how used to it they are. I wish I could do something significant to help. I wish that I fully understood everything they feel, because honestly I don't. I want so badly for things to be good for them, I'm just not so sure that I have all the answers.
I love the weather today. It is completely perfect. It is cool and rainy, and clean and wonderful. I think everyone in Oklahoma is feeling the relief that this wonderful weather has brought.
I am really excited because I made a 116 on my Geometry test! I was a little concerned about it but I am super glad that I did well!! I also made a 87 on my Chemistry test. I wish I would have done better, but it was the first quiz of the year, so hopefully it won't matter too much.
End.rant. now!