My go to guys

This is just my favorite thing ever.
I love the song.
I love the video.
I love the random dog.
I love their voices.
I love everything about this.

Weary Heart

Youth group was really good tonight. I almost didn't go because my dad had to be somewhere and my mom had a not-so-great day, and I didn't want to make her have to go out of her way. But God is good, and I really needed to be there tonight. My heart is just weary. I'm just sad that there is so much hurt and struggle in the hearts and minds of people in my youth group. But like I said, God is good, and I just have to live in that because that is really all I can do.

I didn't get to drive to or from church. Lame right? My mom is kind of ridiculous about me driving. I think its just freaking her out that her baby is old enough to drive! haha!

When life gives you Lemons...

Church this morning was amazing. I am constantly amazed at how loving our God is! We were talking about how after Peter denied knowing Jesus, (leading up to his death on the cross) they had a movie-moment where they locked eyes. The face Jesus saw was one of anger and regret. The face Peter saw...One of forgiveness. How beautiful! God is so faithful! I was tearing up by the end...No biggie!

I am in the process of completely cleaning out my closet. Almost every item of clothing I own is now in piles on my floor. I have no motivation! (not to mention no room to walk! haha!) But then my mom was telling me about this thing she read, where every day you just pick up or put away 27 things. I'm not sure the significance of the number 27, but it helped. Before, I didn't want to start working on it, because I felt like if I did, then I had to finish it all then. This way, I work on it a little everyday and by the time school starts, my room will be spic-and-span...for about three seconds...but those three seconds will be totally worth it!

I haven't been feeling super motivated in my music either. Which is kind of frustrating, because that is the thing I love most to do, so why don't I constantly feel like I actually want to do it? I need to have a slow song, and a fast song, by September. (I don't have to be in Dallas for my huge weekend until September now! That is such a blessing because now, I have more time to prepare, and I will get to go to Indiana with my family to visit my Grandfather. Plus, I will get to eat at my favorite restaurant in the world! Stefano's in St. Louis! Cannoli...Here I come! ) Anyway, I haven't practiced in a couple days, which totally sucks on my part. I don't know, maybe I'll practice today?


Last night, I stayed up until about two in the morning, reading this book called Adam by Ted Dekker. It was super good! Although I had on about every light in the house...the doors locked...and the TV on mute....
Let's just say it was a little scary!


Ohh! I also have youth group tonight! So not only will I get to spend two hours in amazing fellowship with a ton of beautiful people, but I will be driving to and from church! (It is about 20-25 minutes one way) So tonight will be good!


And on a completely random note : I have been drinking a TON of lemon water! It has been over a hundred for the last month in Oklahoma. Lame right? Ha!

The walls are coming down

My Ipod won't turn on. The reason that is such a big deal to me, other than the fact that I am constantly on it, is that all the music I've written and recorded in the last few months is on it. I am terrified that I will lose all of it. Maybe this is God reminding me that I should be dependent on him and not on the things of this world, such as Ipods and things of the sort. So the only option I really have, is to hand it all over to him. I don't get to say I'm following him without making a few sacrifices I guess. So for the time it takes to get it fixed, every second I would normally spend on my Ipod, now will be spend with God. I just have to trust that if I am putting him first in all the things I do, that he will continue to lead my path and that I will not be disappointed in the outcome.

School is starting in about 19 days. I am kind of stressing out, because I have to get my priorities, with my music, my youth group, and all the plays and musicals in order pretty quickly. And then I still have to make time for actual school work and time to just breath and be with friends. It is going to be incredibly hectic. God help me! I also have to be in Dallas the first day of school, for training. So I will wake up at 6:00am get ready and go to school to start a new year, have lunch with my very best friend, and then leave straight from school and drive the three hours to Dallas with my dad. I will spend two hours in training ( It is vocal training and music training where I will have to play the songs I have written and have a professional help me work on them ) Then my dad and I will drive the three hours back home. So I will probably make it home about 11:30 or 12:00. Maybe if I'm not too tired, I will drive home! I have my permit and will be getting my license in December. I'm becoming a better driver, and driving with my dad is usually pretty good. So it should be a pretty eventful day!

I am aslo trying to make reading my Bible everyday a priority too. I was trying to figure out when I would do it, in the morning...at night...when? And I decided that I would wake up earlier before school and read it then. Of course then I was concerned that I would be super tired and that I would never be able to catch up on sleep if I did that, but then I just felt like God was telling me that if I am putting him first, that I will not be tried but renewed. How beautiful is that! God is so good! Like, I don't have to worry about ANYTHING, because he is in control of it all! Don't get me wrong, somedays are harder than others to be disciplined with all the commitments I have, but tonight He has just given me the presence of mind to understand that this is good. I am in the right place, doing the things He has called me to do.Thank you Jesus for that!